Guilty Fantasy;;

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2008-03-01T23:11:40Z

Mom just passed away today..

Satant'sSpawn;;

2007-12-05T07:16:57Z

Do you think it's bad that I'm looking for some sort of loop-hole for this 'trouble'?

I think it's sad.

SequinsAndSexDreams;;

2007-11-29T20:01:16Z

I've been the girl with her skirt pulled high
Been the outcast never running with mascara eyes
Now I see the world as a candy store
With a cigarette smile, saying things you can't ignore
Like Mommy I love you
Daddy I hate you
Brother I need you
Lover, hey "fuck you"
I can see everything here with my third eye
Like the blue in the sky

If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

I've been the girl- middle finger in the air
Unaffected by rumors, the truth: I don't care
So open your mouth and stick out your tongue
You might as well let go, you can't take back what you've done
So find a new .l.i.f.e.s.t.y.l.e.
A new reason to [smile]
Look for Nirvana
Under the strobe lights
Sequins and sex dreams
You w h i s p e r to me
There's no reason to cry

If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

You take what you get and you get what you give
I say don't run from yourself, man, that's no way to live
I've got a record in my bag you should give it a spin
Lift your hands in the air so that life can begin

If God Is a DJ... If God
If God is a DJ (life is a dance floor)
Get your ass on the dance floor

If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it [x2]

MyHeart'sABattleGround;;

2007-11-28T19:35:25Z

I'm bored, and lonely here in Journalism/Yearbook class. Katlian is gone with Lairyck to get adds downtown, Allanah's working on her stuff, as is Kim.

So, the main reason why I have NOTHING to do, is because our photographers believe that it is their RIGHT to just sit on the computers, playing fucking TETRIS, while they have photograph orders stacking up, people waiting on them to do it. Then the go out, walk around, chat to their friends, while their supposed to be taking pictures for certain subjects. Well guess what? The come back, and nothing's done, nothing's taken, just a bunch of shit that they decide to take with their friends, and totally screw everyone else out of getting any pictures. So General Staff is bitching and complaining to the teacher, teacher goes "Well go talk to the photographers about it." You confront the photographers and they go, "Oh well, I thought I took the pictures." Well obviously you DIDN'T when they don't show up in the fucking folder that they're SUPPOSED to be in. Get off your lazy fucking ass and take the goddamned pictures already. Then I go out and take some pictures for what I need, in my SPARE, get some, load them, all the rest of it, and am again STUCK because in THIS block, the photographers have the camera's (Which they dick around with) so I get stuck, AGAIN. Auifjghoeklfkduirifnkdodkjcvjfao;dodekdklkldiovgnm. Jerks.

LunchtimeBoredom;;

2007-11-27T20:36:56Z

Great, so, who's my grad date? I totally forgot that I need that this year. Fuck. Fuckfuckfuck.

guiltyfantasy @ 2007-11-24T23:54:00

2007-11-25T07:54:51Z

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Writer's Block: Google Me

2007-11-25T05:49:51Z

Have you ever Googled your own name? How do you feel about the results?

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It was kinda creepy. I felt violated. xD

EarlyMorningHourThoughts-Part2;;

2007-11-22T12:41:19Z

Do you ever notice when you see something and go "Oh, that would make a great tattoo." how mostly it would be either small and/or on something flat? I find I love really original tattoos on people. For myself, I really really like semi-tribalistic. I don't really know what else to refer to them as. I always seem to be creating my own, but only if I draw on myself, on the part of my body where I want the tattoo to be placed. It's kind of like a mock-up of how it would look, with the exact proportions that you would have to use. I dunno if it's just me, but I find it really easy that way to determine how/where I want something put.

I only brought this up because I designed my next tattoo. <3

EarlyMorningHourThoughts;;

2007-11-22T12:35:40Z

So in my paper journal I made my Christmas list that I need to buy for, my list that I need to save for, and some odds and ends that I need to do when I can. It will help me, I hope, to be a little more organized. I really need that right now. It's sad that I now find it more helpful when everything that I own, basicly, is in lists or groups of commons. I just hope that this lasts, that I'll be able to get my whole life really organized, in terms of goals for after school, and saving up money for the things I really need. I know that I need to prioritize my school to come first, but right now, eing out for three weeks, I have started to really focus on the after and out of school life, that I need to plan and make, which is kind of scary. I know what I want to do, sort of, but I know that to get anywhere with anything I'll need money, lots, a decent personal computer, a decent cell phone for business, as well as pleasure, and a good place to live, with enough room for my clothes, computer, television, PS2, and Wii. I know I sound like a gaming nerd, but really, that's all I will need for a place to live. I can even stay some place cramped, I don't care. Enough room for my things, and I'm all set.

And I know that right now it would be handy and all to have my own vehicle, but really, I'd rather wait until I can afford something other than a piece of shit, something I can use for longer than 5 years. Good gas milage, green if I can get, economicly sound, as they say. Therefore, less gas getting shelled out, good for the environment, and more money in my pocket.

guiltyfantasy @ 2007-11-21T20:32:00

2007-11-22T04:48:25Z

"Kann Ihren Namen hören und kann nicht.
Warum nicht können wir dieses Schwärzung fühlen."

"Can hear your name, but don't know how.
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?"

I had a dream last night that Behl took us on a field trip up a mountain, and afterwards, we all got to free-for-all through this box of stuff, everyone getting one thing. Shawn and I both grabbed the Wiimote&Wiiguitar at the same time, but somehow, he ended up with it. I ended up with a pen that shook and glowed when you wrote with it. I was kinda bummed. xD I think I need to buy Guitar Hero 3 for my Wii soon.

Blahh, I guess I'm missing this whole week of school, again. I'm so fucked for my VAMT class, because that teacher is a monster. (Mr. Behl.) Whatever. Hopefully I'll work this weekend, and make some much-needed-money for any and all Christmas presents that I will be buying for people this year. ^.^ (And also the fact that I owe some people money still, I know. x.x)

*sigh* So, staying home for weeks on end has kinda taken a toll on me. I'm really really missing talking with people, who are not Allanah (She's been calling me this whole time complaining about Katlian. -.- ). And I miss going to work, getting out of the house, driving, being able to do those sort of things were I don't need to rely on my parents. Cabin fever. @_e. Either way, I miss people, a lot. I kinda wish I was allowed to drive to Castlegar, Spokane, or Kelowna, but parents won't let me because it's their vehicles. Understandable I suppose. Just frustrating.

TiredArmsFromWiiSports;;

2007-11-20T03:22:38Z

Went to the doctor again today. Still sick. Ick. He tells me it will go away eventually, with lots of rest and liquids. Dunno. Sick of being this sick. I want FOOD damnitt. =(

Btw, if you haven't seen Moonlight, GO AND WATCH IT. It's on CBS on Friday nights. IT'S SO EFFING GOOD. <3 Mick and Beth are DESTINED! It's kinda sad though. XD sdfjsa;lkghifgaodghadg. It makes me happy. <3<3<3<3

SickAndTiredOfBeingSickAndTired;;

2007-11-19T05:25:49Z

I was bored, and wanted to post something. =/

Scattered;;Thoughts;;

2007-11-18T07:26:34Z

&&I can't stop thinking about you. I don't know why. I remember when we fell asleep holding hands one night. It always makes me smile...It's silly. I'm sorry. I miss you.&&
And you!!! You just confuse me. It hurts. It really hurts.&&

So I've been thinking about a lot of stuff these past couple weeks that I've been not at school. It kinda sucks, cause I don't have anyone to bounce off ideas of anymore, because, yeah. =\

So yeah, I'm definately graduating this year (Providing I pass all my courses this year.) and I just don't know how I feel about it. I'm unsure of my grad date, dress, all those silly end-of-highschool things, but I also am torn with what I want to AFTER I get all this done with. I know I want to work, save up money, because I have plans to go to AE next year, as well as Pride in Nelson again, but also money to go towards my next section of education. That's where I'm at a standstill;

I want to go somewhere, and take an aesthetics course, because it's a six month thing, then I've got a job set up at Retro Betty's if I get that license. That'd be cool, cause I could work as an aesthetician (sp), saving up money for whatever. The other side of this, is that I have my parents who are wanting me to take computer courses, because "I'm just so good with computers, blah blah blah." but they don't really get it. If I'm to be working in computers, even a computer course, I need to get a new computer, which means saving up money for that, and other things that go along with a computer. Aaskdjfasdkjfgdfsdf. And they don't get even what I want to go into IN computers, so they fucking fight with me about it, and it gets frustrating. Computer GRAPHICS, photo EDITING, possibly photography for a specific field of computers. They go, do coding, do programming. Sure, sounds easy enough, when you have to memorize at least three different languages of computer coding. SO EASY they think. Not cool.

Blah. I don't even know. I have all these things in my head I want to write down, put out there, but I can't actually accumulate them all into the same thought to type them out. They're so just...scattered. I'm just so sidetracked with school and people right now. =\

"So keep going 'till you know when it's time, when it's right."

[[Edit;;]]

I'm addicted to the show "Moonlight." <3

Deadly;;Disease;;

2007-11-16T00:16:28Z

Alright, so
I'm not new to LJ, in fact, I have several going, somewhere in time at least. I always seem to make them and forget about them when there's nothing interesting going on in either mine, or someone else's journal. Oh well. I'm sure I'll stick with this one. I like the name, and hopefully I'll make lots of friends with the same interests as myself. At least, that's the ideal thing.